My Desire

Moments take up my time. Moments in the day where my mind begins to wander and wonder about my life's purpose and joy.

What is my joy? What is my joy grounded in? What keeps me from resting in pure joy?

My heart, mind, and soul came to this conclusion: my joy is found in the presence of greatness... in the presence of the one truth that surpasses all things and wraps my heart in peace... my joy is found in the presence of the Lord and the Truth that He loves me simply because He does. I did and do nothing to earn His constant comfort. I wish I had enough time and words to share my heart to it's fullest. When those moments capture my thoughts in the day (usually when I'm driving or daydreaming when I'm supposed to be working) a rush, an overflow of the realization of my life's joys and blessings become a delightful reality to me. What if that happiness was taken away... what if those things that this earth provides... that give me comfort... what if they were taken away? What happened when they were taken away?

What keeps me from joy?

Fear and doubt.

Where does fear and doubt come from?

Lies.

If I know love and God is love... then what have I to fear? Why have I reason to doubt? My JOY is grounded in TRUTH. So much more than the truth that God loves me but that God simply LOVES... Blessed be the name of the Lord. When the sun is shining down on me and when the world is all as it should be... and most especially when the road is marked with suffering and when there is pain in the offering, Blessed be the Name of The Lord. THAT is where my joy comes from. My joy cannot be taken.

Music comforts my heart when I have no words. These belong to Jeremy Camp

---------- You want to be real, you want to be empty inside. You want to be someone laying down your pride. You want to be someone someday then lay it all down before the king. You want to be whole, you want to have purpose inside. You want to have virtue and purify your mind. You want to be set free today. Then lay it all down before the king

This is my desire, this is my return. This is my desire to be used by You

I know my heart is to feel you near and I know my life it's to do your will.

All my life I have seen where you've taken me beyond all I have hoped and there's more left unseen. There's not much I can do to repay all you've done So I give my hands to use--------